Thursday's Child ... has far to go ... (0nm10wn2feet) wrote,
Thursday's Child ... has far to go ...

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And then ...

To top off a completely "stellar" 24 hours, I had to have an argument with my daughter about the wisdom of taking her driver's test on Dixie Hwy. on a Saturday afternoon while RenFest is still going on ... I finally told her that I CAN'T tell her all the reasons why I don't think its a good idea. She's still convinced its because I don't trust her, or I'm trying to undermine her confidence (?), or I'm just trying to be difficult (??). I dunno ... I have a hard time understanding that line of thought, at least w/my kids. I don't think I've made any secret of where my feelings stand where they're concerned, but every time I disagree with them, I'm trying to "control" them. I know its all part of that 'teen' thing we all go through, but it couldn't come at a worse time.

I need to get back on my meds before I BURST. Right after my argument w/Jessa, I had to listen to Steven vent for about 45 minutes. He, evidently, is getting the same batch of CRAP he always gets at school, with the same number of friends .... 1 or 2. He's not taking his meds, cuz he doesn't think he needs them, so he's getting depressed as hell about school already. Jess isn't taking hers because SHE doesn't think SHE needs them. I wish EVERYONE would take their damn meds so I wouldn't have to take so many!

Anyway, I'm exhausted, depressed, overwhelmed and .... underpaid? Um, no, let's say NOT paid at all ... at least not in real dollars. My payment comes in the form of people getting what they need and disappearing from my life for a length of time, only to resurface when they think they need something again. Or so it seems when I'm in the bottom of the PIT of DESPAIR. Which is where I feel like I'm dwelling at the moment.

I can't say anything right, I can't do anything right, and I don't even want to try (again), but I have no choice .... many promises to keep and miles to go before I sleep!

[tengo un duele en mi corazon!]
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